slave [SCREAMS]

Man.

2009-10-01T13:10:24Z

I used to be really good at this thing.

I tried. I gave up.

D:

its been over a year.

2009-10-01T11:42:32Z

neat.

and tell me this, why do people constantly make new journals? I mean, seriously, does your life change so drastically from one day to the next, that your last obsession just can't be dealt with anymore?

You make no sense.

Mad Men. Don Draper.

2008-09-02T21:42:33Z

Its my latest obsession. Its quite unhealthy actually. The sheer fact that I want a time machine just to go back into the early 60's is ridiculous. But who cares!? When he's back there...

Yeah, he's a huge womanizer. I don't care. I'll take a number.

Simply gorgeous.

2008-08-12T20:45:45Z

She’s mostly gone, some other place.
I’m getting by, in other ways.
Everything they whispered in our ear,
Is coming true.

Trying to justify the things I used to do,
Believe in you.

Watching you drown,
I’ll follow you down,
I am here right beside you.

The lights in the sky
Have finally arrived
I am staying right beside you.

Trying to stay away,
Just in case.
I’ve come to realise we all have our place
Time, time has a way, you know, to make it clear.
And I have my room and yes, I can’t disappear,
Or leave you here.

Watching you drown,
I’ll follow you down,
And I am here right beside you.
The lights in the sky are waving goodbye,
And I am staying right beside you.

HI.

2008-06-12T21:25:30Z

Hello.

I remember you.

poopin'

2007-09-17T01:38:13Z

i think my car's finally getting fixed.

and its possibly true that this line up of NIN is no long going to be.

bummer.

watching aaron was totally killer.

and i just pierced my nose.

neato.

yep.

2007-08-29T11:00:43Z

danny lohner is massive poo.
:P

interesting!

2007-06-05T20:48:32Z

totally cool, but how the hell did i get 'love bug'?

the wretched.

2007-05-29T03:02:13Z

Just a reflection
Just a glimpse
Just a little reminder
Of all the what abouts
And all the might have
Could have beens
Another day
Some other way
But not another reason to continue
And now youre one of us
The wretched

The hopes and prays
The better days
The far aways
Forget it

It didnt turn out the way you wanted it to, did it

Now you know
This is what it feels like
Now you know
This is what it feels like

The clouds will part and the sky cracks open
And God himself will reach his fucking arm through
Just to push you down
Just to hold you down
Stuck in this hole with the shit and the piss
And its hard to believe it could come down to this
Back at the beginning
Sinking
Spinning
And in the end
We still pretend
The time we spend
Not knowing when
Youre finally free
And you could be

But it didnt turn out the way you wanted it to
It didnt turn out quite the way you wanted it

Now you know
This is what it feels like

You can try to stop it but it keeps on coming
You can try to stop it but-

you know, i should've just known.

dude.

2007-05-21T08:04:43Z

I turned 24 on May 12th.

sweet.

joy?

2007-05-08T05:51:10Z

I'm back, i think?

sure. why not.

greetings everyone.

ah. fancy.

2007-04-03T00:57:28Z

i brought my laptop to work today. now its like i've got gigs of music at my fingertips! and it doesn't hurt that i found a wireless connection here.

HOORAY! and all that jazz.

song lyrics for the day:

Black Celebration - Depeche Mode

Let's have a black celebration
Black celebration
Tonight

To celebrate the fact
That we've seen the back
Of another black day

I look to you
How you carry on
When all hope is gone
Can't you see

Your optimistic eyes
Seem like paradise
To someone like
Me

I want to take you
In my arms
Forgetting all I couldn't do today

Black celebration
Black celebration
Tonight

To celebrate the fact
That we've seen the back
Of another black day

I look to you
And your strong belief
Me, I want relief
Tonight

Consolation
I want so much
Want to feel your touch
Tonight

Take me in your arms
Forgetting all you couldn't do today

Black celebration
I'll drink to that
Black celebration
Tonight

woooo!

2007-03-31T08:23:36Z

posting from ren's enV while we're at the mint. Fantasic! I think I'm waiting for another red headed slut. We go off. LIKE HARD. 30 bucks for six drinks. FUCK. YEAH.

i'm just

2007-03-21T08:39:17Z

so fucking bad at journals, seriously.
to write about my day is like PULLING TEETH.

well, if anyone cares to know, nothing's happening.
its pretty boring. i'm still looking for that second job.
cause paying bills on time is pretty rad.

other than that. i'm not much for excitement in these times.

hope everyone had a killer St. Patty's day.

oh, and do yourself a favor, go see 300. NOW.

oh yeah. i was supposed to do this...

2007-03-07T10:43:53Z

I'll do the following for you.....

1) Tell you why I befriended you.
2) Associate you with a song/film.
3) Tell a random fact about you.
4) Tell a first memory about you.
5) Associate you with a character/pairing.
6) Ask something I’ve always wanted to know about you.
7) Tell you my favourite user pic of yours.
8) In retort, you must spread this disease in your LJ.

comment. or not.
even if i don't know you that well, i'll make 'em interesting.
or something.
;-)

its been a really long, long time...

2007-02-26T22:13:30Z

okay, not really. only like a little over 10 days. but i've had some [possibly] interesting news in these past days.

He's leaving. He is my infamous co-worker. His last show was this sunday's [yesterday's] 11pm newscast. Well, i take that back. Last night was his last anchoring night. He'll be working on Wednesday to front his sweeps piece. and then there's going to be a dinner for him at Lenghtwise @ 7pm. You know, i'm really going to miss that douchebag, not just because he was totally hot, but because he was pretty fucking fun. but now, he get's to leave this hell hole of a town and work down in San Diego, so we all know he's going to stay classy. ;)

We'll miss ya washburn. you lucky bastard.

as for me, well nothing really. other than i'm going to miss the fucker i had a goofy crush on, hahaha. I've been on 'survivalism' mode [haha] to say the very least. i am looking for another job. because working 30 hours isn't really enough. i like money. i like to pay my bills on time, sue me. and i do like to treat others to things, be it dinner, movie, a random gift, whatever. and 30 hours doesn't give me the chance to do that. granted, working 2 jobs probably wouldn't give me much time to myself, but that's fine. i can't stand that time anyway, i'd rather be busy, just doing something other than nothing. i need to take more trips to Santa Monica more often. even if its for a few, killer hours. that monday was totally fun. we've got to do it again sometime, don't you think so?

as if this should be like life-threatening important...but if you know me, it is.
there was another NIN song 'leaked' at a show in the UK.
its incredible. the lyrics are beautiful.

watch the sun,
as it crawls across a final time
and it feels like,
like it was a friend.
it is watching us,
and the world we set on fire
do you wonder,
if it feels the same?

and the sky is filled with light
can you see it?
all the black is really white
if you believe it
as your time is running out
let me take away your doubt
you can find a better a place
in this twilight

dust to dust,
ashes in your hair remind me
what it feels like
and I won't feel again
night descends
could I have been a better person
if I could only do it all again

and the sky is filled with light
can you see it?
all the black is really white
if you believe it
and the longing that you feel
you know none of this real
you can find a better a place
in this twilight

my violent heart.

2007-02-15T09:23:03Z

You and I, we may look the same
But we are very far apart
There's bullet-holes where my compassion used to be
And there is violence in my heart

Into fire you can send us
From the fire we return
You can label us a consequence
Of how much you have to learn

You can try but you'll never understand
This is something you will never understand
Can you hear it now?
Hear it coming now
Can you hear it now?

On hands and knees
We crawl
You cannot stop us all

Our bones, our skin
We will not let you win

You have set something in motion
Much greater than you've ever known
Standing there in all your grand naivety
About to reap what you have sown

Time will feed upon your weaknesses
And soon you'll lose the will to care
When you return to the place that you call home
We will be there, we will be there

On hands and knees
We crawl
You cannot stop us all
Our blood will stay
We will not go away

On hands and knees
We crawl
You can not stop us all
Our blood our ways
Will never leave this place

we crawl...

all of this shit. the whole "game"...is fucking bizare.
and i love it.

seriously. THANK YOU to whoever the fuck leaked this.
i cannot fucking WAIT for april to get here.

3:30pm sunday afternoon...

2007-02-04T08:42:39Z

SUPERBOWL 41.

who's watching?

i am. sort of.
except i'll be working.

oh well. we're bringing grub.
hopefully it'll be entertaining.

all i want is a decent game.
and to see that damn
kevin federline commerical.

.....touched....

2007-01-31T12:59:28Z

you say that i am too
so much, of what you say is true
i'll never find someone quite like you again
i'll never find someone quite like you, like you
the razors and the dying roses
plead i don't leave you alone
the demi-gods and hungry ghosts
oh god, god knows i'm not at home
i'll never find someone quite like you again
i'll never find someone quite like you again
i, i looked into your eyes and saw
a world that does not exist
i looked into your eyes and saw
a world i wish i was in
i'll never find someone quite as touched as you
i'll never love someone quite the way
that I loved you

hmmmm....

2007-01-31T12:21:36Z

i need a haircut.

i think i'll get one today.

if i can stay awake long enough to get one.

wooo? or wowie...maybe.

2007-01-29T12:13:19Z

i'm going to see the old man today.

um, it's been awhile. i haven't even given
him his christmas gift yet. nothing special.
just shit he can use, to stay warm.

hmmm. it should be pretty interesting.

try this...

2007-01-22T01:16:12Z

fill a stainless steel shaker with ice
[those just work better, they actually make your drink COLD.]

almost 2 shots of Redrum Rum or Malibu [sweet rum is best]
cranapple juice about 4oz.
a splash of jager

shake it.
pour into highball glasses.
proceed to slam.

i came up with this last night.
the step parental and ren loved it.
please note, none of these are ACTUAL
measurements, i was quite influenced at the time
and i just made it to taste. so you can
screw with the measurements all you want.
that will make 2 drinks.

i call it the Finck.
enjoy!

serpentineblack @ 2007-01-17T06:21:00

2007-01-17T14:28:25Z

Steve Perry rocks harder than you do.
thank you.

WOW, and i mean W.O.W

2007-01-16T07:26:20Z

just kickin' back. watching the co-workers broadcast our very small town issues...

and then this in the B block...

W.O.W.
that's right. WOW, people camping out for the expansion pack for war of world craft.

you know, i can't say shit, i went with my brother when he camped out
for the Wii.

its just not my bag, is all.

slow news day.
seriously.

oh yeah, hugh laurie won a golden globe for best actor in a TV drama series.
fuck yeah.

ew. total cheap score. and ew again.

2006-12-31T11:24:08Z

you know. this working 6 days a week totally sucks. if i was making more than what i'm making, i wouldn't bitch. this fucking BS i have is going to waste.

on a completely lighter/off subject note...my fat ass just totally scored some brand new jeans for only 20 bucks a pair. the bryant was having a killer sale. thank god. other wise those damn jeans are like 50 bucks. i'm sorry, that's too much to pay to just wear these pants that are going to just be worn to target, or work.

and jared leto is gorgeous. score. :-D [see icon]

so everyone, have yourself a happy and safe new year.
have a drink for me, i actually have to be in at 3am to edit an HOUR for the morning show!
can you believe that? who the FUCK is going to be watching the SUNRISE show on new years day?!!???!?!
you SHOULD BE passed out on a friends couch, taking a CAB home, or getting a room at a local hotel,
NOT watching my fucking newscast.

seriously.

let's hope your 2007 starts off a little more interesting than mine! cause i'm showing up to work psuedo drunk.
HOPEFULLY.
:-D